Tues 19 Jul

Had a nice cookout with Michael and Taylor last night, but Michael has decided he still wants to pursue a life in the marijuana industry once it is legalized and this had thrown a rift into things. Taylor is unhappy and her mom is VERY upset and feels totally betrayed after the things Michael told them after he had been arrested. He has likely destroyed any trust they felt for him. Even though he would not be able to pursue this until legalization occurs, his discussion of things at this time may precipitate some less desirable changes in their relationship. He refuses to believe that he has issues with addiction that he could not control, and I don't believe he will accept it until he once again goes down the path of self-destruction. I pray that he is again lucky enough to turn things around before he loses his life and everything dear to him, and maybe a second time at the bottom will serve to convince him that he really isn't in control of addiction, but I am really not looking forward to going through it again with him. He says he needs to pursue this to be happy in his life, but he is failing to consider how badly he will impact the happiness of those who love him. Sigh. Food: 8:15 am Rhubarb danish, 101 g blackberries, coffee 11:40 am 1 c Quaker Oat Squares, 1/2 c soy milk, plum, string cheese Exercise: 9:00-9:45 am Walk