Thurs 16 Jul

Spent most of yesterday late afternoon/evening in tears/deep sadness because I felt I couldn't in good conscience desert my coworkers by following through with my retirement plan, even though I have put so much thought and soul-searching into coming to the decision. Having to abort at this late stage was breaking my heart. This morning I had an encouraging thought, however. The personnel situation with the other coworker could conceivably drag out for some time before they could give my boss the approval to begin the rehiring process. It does appear that is the direction it is headed, though they can't say anything for legal reasons. If I proceed with the plan to hand in my letter of intent tomorrow, they will have 9 weeks to prepare. Personnel should hopefully allow them to advertise, screen candidates and start interviews during that time since it is a known date for the vacancy. Nothing stops Amy from screening for two candidates since it would be basically the same position advertised. This is the first hopeful feeling I've had since yesterday afternoon. I would like to think I might be doing my coworkers a favor rather than deserting them in time of need. Food: 6:50 am 1 c Quaker Oat Squares, 1/2 c light original soy milk, 1/4 large cantaloupe, 100 g blackberries, coffee 10:30 am 1 Musketeers mini, 1 Heath fun size 12:55 pm Peach soy shake, 72 g apple cinnamon kringle, 70 cal Bel Gioioso fresh mozzarella balls 2:00 pm 2 butter rum Nips 4:45 pm Chips & salsa, 2 12-oz margaritas, chicken quesadilla, 1/2 c guacamole, 1/3 c lettuce Exercise: 4:50-5:45 am Leslie Sansone 3/5 Mega Miles DVD